The funny thing about writing is that it's harder to do when you yourself are a writer. Now, I'm not saying I'm Ernest Hemingway or anything, but it's difficult for me to put out what I want to say in an elegant manner, one in which I'm actually satisfied with. The comma I just used is a comma splice by the way.
You know, I can't wait for this year to end. I miss my friends. I guess I really took it for granted how we were able to just talk about anything so simply and feel perfectly comfortable about it. Or we could just lie around in someones car and just listen to music. Speaking of which, Ed and I chilled in my car after we got some pho, and we were listening to music in my car. When I finally decided to start the engine, we shortly learned that my car ran out of batteries. I think that happened because I accidentally put the AC on. So for about 1 - 2 hours, we listened to more music. And it was good. Jerry swung by afterwards to jumpstart my car, and we left, but I forgot where we went afterwards.
We were dissatisfied Socratess, plural. Maybe dissatisfieds socrates? Whatever, as long as you get the idea. Maybe individually we weren't the happiest, but we were always out for each other to make each other happy. But I like it like that better. Life isn't about making yourself happy. It's about being happy with other people. Which in turn, makes you happy.
And I'm a nice guy. Or that's what people tell me all the time, and I feel like it's true I guess. I try to be nice and fair all the time. It's just how people should act all the time. I say this not because I'm some goody two shoes or something (though theres nothing wrong with being one if you are). I speak from experience. When you yourself are treated unfairly or douchelike, you remember how it feels, and you refrain from ever behaving that way to others.
But I'm at a crossroads now. Does a satisfied pig deserve to be treated like a dissatisfied Socrates? Idealistically yes, everyone should be treated fairly and nicely. But this world is far from ideal.
I'm tired of lies and manipulation, of being used and under-appreciated. Playing the fool is something I'm really good at, and I do it so I don't have to hurt anyone's feelings. But this is the internet. I'm gonna quote south park on this: You have a lot of growing up to do, suck my balls.
I'll be gone as soon as I can, I can smell summer. Don't be so scared to take a second for reflection.
3 comments:
major in political theory, mang. you can read all you want on socrates, plato, locke, and all those great philosophers.
no man, it's philosophy you should major in.
And, the second for reflection is to see what you're made of.
To think about it, we were all fools (maybe we still are).
It's good that you're actually thinking about this stuff.
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